Saturday, September 10, 2005
Ok since DEBBIE TAN PEI YI asked me to update i shall update.
Happy now?I've been busy nd tired this week.
Furthermore,I had not been sleeping for two days.
As i stayed up to do my mountains of work,nd now im left with Chinese nd Art work.
Im not gonna sleep tonight too.But i slept for 4hours same for both days.
I guess it would be same for tonight.
I find myself concentrating more during the nights.
As it was really quiet nd no one disturbing me.
I am suppose to wake up at 12 today,then neh woke me up at 11:35.How great.Haha=D
Im crippled now.As i pulled my left leg muscles on Friday's training.So im Lame.
Btw..someone said this:TAKE MY NAME AWAY! I knw its very nice.No need to publicise.Thank you.
Right Debbie?HAHAHA=D Im tired!But i cant rest.I must cherish the time i had now.
I have wasted enough time.Time is precious,I promise i will sleep well on Sunday night.


Time has passed,
And nothing has really changed.

The world is still a scary place,
that makes me cower in the darkness.
I still bear unshed tears,
for the feelings that I do not possess,
In my heart nor in my mind.

All I have ever known
Has been distrust, fear, anger
And disappointment.

I know deep down there are feelings of care.
Love and concern;
I know that deep down
There is a part of me that trusts,
And wants to be loved.

But for today,
I'll hide in my little shell,
Disappear into tomorrow,
Or maybe even yesterday.
All I have to do is just forget.

I cannot decide
Whether I should continue on alone
Or find someone who will stay by my side.

I cannot decide
Whether I should let my feelings occur
Or proceed as I always have,
And bury them deep in my heart.

I feel loss more keenly
Than most in the world,
And on an everyday basis
Expect it to occur.

Peace of mind
Is not something that I possess
And fear of loss,
Fear of betrayal,
Keeps me from letting anyone get close.

I cannot decide
Whether I should let myself trust again,
Or continue on alone.

Time changes everything,
And we weren't immune
To the changes that time wrought
In our relationship.

i scored at 12:59 AM